December 19, 2015

Happy December

A few days ago, I had the chance to get in touch with old friends. It's been two years since the last time we got together and since they're in town for a quick visit I took this opportunity to catch up with them.  These friends I'm referring are a lovely couple, I had the honor to attend their wedding in 2013. I am happy seeing them together after 2 years, and the best part is, more old friends joined us later that day. From 3 folks to 8! One of them, my ex-girlfriend (now married), the other one my highschool classmate, the other one a friend and editor from our college paper (and is dating my highschool classmate), and the other two, a lovely couple as well.

I won't give details on how we met, because it's sort of crazy but these people I haven't seen in the past couple of years, are very dear to me even though we are now busy with life.

As they tirelessly tell stories and catch up with events, I cannot help but think how time went by so fast. From young, skinny and progressive in 2002, to becoming old, chubby and matured. Well, most of these friends of mine are still progressive and in a way I believe that we've become matured in the way we look at things and having solid perspectives in life. It's always nice when you meet up with old friends and see how much you've both grown. I took a different path but the moments I had experienced with these friends are forever in my boat and will never throw them away.

I hope to see them again soon and spend another afternoon laughing together.

November 14, 2015

I Got Plans For You

Received this notification earlier today. Should I update? Or should I ignore it? This is totally not related to the following post.

I've been blogging for almost a decade now and to be honest, I haven't written a good content. During the first years of my blogging stint (circa 2005) I received small amount of exposure, met new friends. I was a contributor for a certain food blog. I remember Karl from Pinoy Blogero, Mike from Utak Gago and other famous Pinoy bloggers. I have no idea where they are today, and their blog is already MIA. Some bloggers I met online still runs their sites, such as Kuya Red of Redlan, Jehzeel of Jezhlau Concepts, and Richard of the famous entertainment site Lionheart TV (I watched him rise to stardom he he).

What about me? For as long as I can remember, this is not my first blog. The very first blog I created was back in 2005. After committing myself to maintain this current site, I thought I can make it grow, or make it a source of income. And I did. Aside from the home-based side job I did back then, this blog helped me earn money via paid posts, and used it to pamper myself. By pampering means buying Ultraman toys online.

But did you really maintained this site in terms of regular posting? Nope. If you ask why, it's because I had a very bad case of writer's block, then I became too lazy to update. Lazy to the point that I want to deactivate this little space I have in the blogosphere. This blog is active since 2007, but that's just it. No good content during the past 2 to 5 years, except for the once-a-month post I have about women I love. And yes, I even purchased a domain for it, but what is a blog with a good URL but has shitty content?

A few years ago someone asked me what am I going to do with my life. I was 27 back then. I told him I don't have for now, I want to start think about it once I turn 30. Well I turned 30 this year so yes, it's about time to get serious, lay a solid plan for my life and the first stop is me leaving my old job and find a better one.

Next month is my blog's 8th anniversary, and as part of this plan, I will do my very best to post good content on this site, not just about women and stuff, but contents that makes more sense. Just recently, I thought of revamping the site and deleting old posts, but decided not to. Because these old posts are interesting, these old articles are the heart and soul of this blog. Whether it's an interesting or a crappy post, I won't delete them. You can feast your eyes on these posts; if you like to read them, take the risk (LOL).

I also hope to resume my post as a contributor for that food blog I mentioned earlier. I sent the guys an email, I have issues with log in. Hopefully, it will be resolved and I can start posting again. Stay tuned for that

November 12, 2015

Thoughts While In Bed

It's been more than a week since I arrived here in my hometown. So far everything is well, though sometimes I think of the city and miss the noise, but I am thankful that I get to enjoy calm mornings and cool afternoons here in the province. I miss taking care of plants and recently, the rose cuttings I planted already had its small leaves. I am also in charge of watering the plans on my mom and grandma's garden, something that I miss doing as well. Back in the city, there is no space where you can plant flowers nor a space to put a flower pot. In the city, everything is fast-paced, everyone is busy. Here at home, I can relax by doing the things I love. And I need this time to recharge and refresh myself for next year's job hunting.

Why did you quit your job anyway? There are numerous reasons why people quit their jobs. My former teammates left our employer for 'better job with higher pay'. Some have like 'itutuloy ang pag-aaral' (continue college) only to find out weeks later they're training at another company. Some of them left work because they found jobs outside he country. Last September there was an incident at the office which led half of our team (including me) to leave work. When I filed my resignation letter my supervisor asked me why. My answer's simple -- I am not happy anymore.

Anung gagawin mo ngayon? Ang hirap maghanap ng trabaho. (What are you going to do now? Finding another job is difficult). Well that's a good point. With the Philippine's 'booming' economy (as per our esteemed government officials), chances are little to none when it comes to getting hired to a position that fits your skills. For a moment, it made me question my decision to resign. But still I did.

I remember I had high hopes and very optimistic about my future when I started working in this company. The location of the office from my house is very strategic, and I have amazing co-workers and supervisors with me.

As years passed I started to feel bad about Tuesdays (it's the start of my work week). Instead of enthusiasm, I felt more frustration every time I drag my feet to work. I started opening up to my seniors about this. During these times I had felt that the only reason I go to work is because of my co-workers who became good friends of mine. The thought of quitting my job gives me relief. This feeling went on for several months to a year. When the incident happened, I took it as a sign to finally quit.

Were you happy with your decision to leave? Yes. Very happy.  Most people have hard time quitting; change can be scary. On my part, I once felt that quitting is a sign of failure -- failure, because I have already invested so much time and effort to this work even though you are not properly rewarded. I gave it many chances, hoped that maybe some miracle will happen and a change will come and that I'll love my work again. But no. My two cents-- don't waste your time doing something that doesn't give you happiness. If you love what you do, if you are happy with your work, you'll do good. As for me, I am excited what's in store for me next year. This month and the coming holidays, I'll focus on family and reflection-- and also my plants.

October 31, 2015

What's Your Personality Type?

A chart with descriptions of each Myers–Briggs personality type and the four dichotomies central to the theory (from Wikipedia)

Out of the blue, I took 2 personality tests today, based on the typological theory introduced by Carl Jung and the MBTI developed Isabel Briggs Myers and her mother, Katharine Cooks Briggs.  There's lots of personality tests around the internet (I often see posts on Facebook), and I don't really believe in them mainly because the can be means of internet phishing. But then I decided to take one, to see what these series of questions say about me.

The first test, based on Carl Jung's theory gave me a series of statements and I got to select the answers based on what I think is appropriate or right. I got the result, it is INFJ. This is what it means:

"Strongly humanitarian in outlook, INFJs tend to be idealists, and because of their J preference for closure and completion, they are generally "doers" as well as dreamers.

INFJs are deeply concerned about their relations with individuals as well as the state of humanity at large. They are, in fact, sometimes mistaken for extroverts because they appear so outgoing and are so genuinely interested in people -- a product of the Feeling function they most readily show to the world. On the contrary, INFJs are true introverts, who can only be emotionally intimate and fulfilled with a chosen few from among their long-term friends, family, or obvious "soul mates."

Due in part to the unique perspective produced by this alternation between detachment and involvement in the lives of the people around them, INFJs may well have the clearest of all the types into the motivations of others, for good and for evil. The most important contributing factor to this uncanny gift, however, are the empathic abilities often found in Fs, which seem to be especially heightened in the INFJ type (possibly by the dominance of the introverted N function).

Usually self-expression comes more easily to INFJs on paper, as they tend to have strong writing skills. 

Beneath the quiet exterior, INFJs hold deep convictions about the weightier matters of life. Those who are activists - INFJs gravitate toward such a role - are there for the cause, not for personal glory or political power.

INFJs are champions of the oppressed and downtrodden.They often are found in the wake of an emergency, rescuing those who are in acute distress. INFJs may fantasize about getting revenge on those who victimize the defenseless. The concept of 'poetic justice' is appealing to the INFJ.

Because you appear to have marginal or no (3%) preference of Intuition over Sensing, characteristics of more than one personality type may apply to you: INFJ and ISFJ."

I am impressed of the result of the test, particularly in the last few statements. I can agree that the statements describe my personality well. But checking on the last paragraph, it says that I can also be an ISFJ. So I took another but on a different resource. This time, this is based on MBTI and again, I answered some questions, similar to the first one, and I got the result: ISFJ.

Here's what ISFJ has to say about myself:

"ISFJs are characterized above all by their desire to serve others, their "need to be needed." In extreme cases, this need is so strong that standard give-and-take relationships are deeply unsatisfying to them; however, most ISFJs find more than enough with which to occupy themselves within the framework of a normal life. Since ISFJs, like all SJs, are very much bound by the prevailing social conventions, their form of "service" is likely to exclude any elements of moral or political controversy; they specialize in the local, the personal, and the practical."

Much like from the first result, the MBTI result also included the characteristic of having the desire to serve the people (FACT: I studied Political Science and was a student activist and although I am not active anymore, the activist character in me didn't die at all).

"ISFJs are often unappreciated, at work, home, and play. Ironically, because they prove over and over that they can be relied on for their loyalty and unstinting, high-quality work, those around them often take them for granted--even take advantage of them. Admittedly, the problem is sometimes aggravated by the ISFJs themselves;  And although they're hurt by being treated like doormats, they are often unwilling to toot their own horns about their accomplishments because they feel that although they deserve more credit than they're getting, it's somehow wrong to want any sort of reward for doing work (which is supposed to be a virtue in itself). Because of all of this, ISFJs are often overworked, and as a result may suffer from psychosomatic illnesses."

This is also true in my case. I go to work everyday and do my job well. I am not the best worker the company has and sometimes I get red alerts for low performances in terms of work metrics, but I can say I did well in making our customers satisfied. I myself, don't wan't any awards or any recognition; a simple "thank you" would make me happy and strive to work better.

"In the workplace, ISFJs are methodical and accurate workers, often with very good memories and unexpected analytic abilities; they are also good with people in small-group or one-on-one situations because of their patient and genuinely sympathetic approach to dealing with others. ISFJs make pleasant and reliable co-workers and exemplary employees, but tend to be harried and uncomfortable in supervisory roles. They are capable of forming strong loyalties, but these are personal rather than institutional loyalties; if someone they've bonded with in this way leaves the company, the ISFJ will leave with them, if given the option."

This statement is accurate as well!

"Like most Is, ISFJs have a few, close friends. They are extremely loyal to these, and are ready to provide emotional and practical support at a moment's notice. However, like most Fs they hate confrontation; if you get into a fight, don't expect them to jump in after you. You can count on them, however, run and get the nearest authority figure. Unlike with EPs, the older the friendship is, the more an ISFJ will value it. "

I can attest to this as I only have very few closest friends. Maybe because I don't like large groups, but I prefer few people where we can have deep and meaning conversations. And yes, I do HATE confrontations.

"One ISFJ trait that is easily misunderstood by those who haven't known them long is that they are often unable to either hide or articulate any distress they may be feeling. An adult ISFJ may drive a  friend into a fit of temper over the ISFJ's unexplained moodiness, only afterwards to explain about a death in the family they "didn't want to burden anyone with." Those close to ISFJs should learn to watch for the warning signs in these situations and take the initiative themselves to uncover the problem."

I am a moody person when I'm sick, my friends can attest to that. When I go to work an my friends greet, I don't greet them back. I just stay at my table and work, without saying hi to them. When the day ends I would apologize to them then explain that I have a bad case of sore throat (that usually leads to flu and fever). At first it shocked them, but then they're able to get used to it. Recently they would talk to me right away and ask me if I'm not feeling well.

If I compare the 2 tests I took, both have given out accurate statements about me. While the typology-based test stated I have skills in written communication (which is very true and I think my strength) and also emphasized about my humanitarian character, the MBTI-based test emphasized more on my social/personal traits.

I cannot guarantee if the test sources are legal or has proper certifications/affiliations, but you may still wantto try if you want to know more about yourself. The links are below:

MBTI- based test:
Typology-based test:

October 28, 2015

Moving On

Homies. We may not be the best team, but we are family.

Yesterday, I was able to complete my requirements and clear my account from work. I am now officially, no doubt unemployed. I will miss my work and the people I met and became friends with. But hey, everything must come to an end and everyone must move on. I spent almost 4 years working. During these years there were happy times, but as time passes, stress came and I burned out. I got to a point where I dreaded waking up on Tuesdays and prays for Sunday to arrive. I wasn't happy anymore, so what's the point of staying?

It has been my plan to leave work since 2014 but I had told myself to be patient and hold on. I did, but still.

Now the only thing I am thinking is to go home and be with my family and make up for the years I wasn't with them. This is also a perfect time for me to relax and make my next plans. I hope everything will be good next year. I can do this!

P.S. This is my first post after a couple of months.

April 24, 2015

BREAKING: Saijyo Nagi now blogs under a new platform!

Guys, remember when I blogged about Ultraman actors having their own blogs? Yasue Sato a.k.a. Saijyo Nagi was one of them. Unfortunately after a couple of years the link to her blog was nowhere to be found and I got sad because she's my favorite deunamist and I don't get to see her cute photo updates.

Well, I stumbled upon her Instagram which eventually led me to her Twitter account, and eventually led me to her new blog under Ameblo! I found out she's been using this platform since 2011!

I am really happy to see her latest photos and updates, and it seems she now has her own jewelry line. For now, I'll enjoy myself stalking her blog archives, see ya!

April 16, 2015

On Wounds and Stitches

As part of my vacation last month, I had my warts removed March 25th. I have small warts on both hands, but the biggest one (as big as an M&M chocolate button), located at my left middle finger made me worry so much. The first 2 days were as usual normal, with pains and slight inflammation of the wounds. But as days go by the small ones were healed.

Hours after the cauterization
 The big one however, hasn't. Though I am aware that it's bigger and may take longer time to heal, I was sure that eventually with proper care it will heal like the others. I went to the city and continued working as usual.
A week later, I noticed flesh filling out the wound, which was a good sign; but the wound opening stayed the same. I ignored it and continued to follow mom's advise to put medicine and let it dry as much as possible.

WARNING: You may find the following images graphic. Do no eat while you read this post.

Seven days after

Whenever I let it dry scabs form on the wound itself, then cover it with gauze before going to work. When I get back home I open it to clean, and scabs stick on the gauze causing the wound to open again. This went on for the next 7 days. I tried searching the internet for the best remedies for these types of wounds and found many ways-- some recommends letting the wound dry and some maintaining the wound moist and remove scabs if possible. I tried doing these options to see if it would work, but the wound stayed the same. Still I though that it's a normal part of healing and again, can take a long time for it to completely heal.

18 days after, when the wound is dry

18 days after, after scab is removed

One day I noticed a blot on the gauze covering it. I got worried since it was not usual. I was sure it was blood and not Povidone Iodine. So after work I went straight to the clinic. When the doctor removed the gauze blood flowed in; and though I am used to seeing blood, I freaked out and panicked after seeing it flowing out from my finger. The good doctor put pressure on it to minimized bleeding; after it stopped he carefully examined the wound. He found out that excess flesh prevents the wound from closing and that flesh needs to be removed and have the wound stitched. I agreed to him without any hesitation.

Wound still open but these 5 stitches would help close it in
 It's been almost a month since I had my warts removed, and also time to go back to the doctor to have the stitches removed. I hope that before my trip to Baler everything will be fine. Well, I think that the wound is healing, I don't feel any pains (except for the suture) and there is no sign of swelling or infection. Once I visit the clinic next week, we'll see the result. *cross fingers

UPDATE 04/24/2015: I had the stitches removed April 21. So far it went well (though it's painful when doctor's pulling the thread). He told me I can now go swimming but will still have to apply medications.

UPDATE 05/08/2015: Healed. Thank goodness!!

March 12, 2015

From Android to Windows

I've been an Android user since it first came out in the market. Having no money back then to buy an iPhone, I resorted to the then entry level Samsung Galaxy Pocket which sports the Gingerbread version of Android. I fell in love right away- tons of applications and games available, and most of all, Android itself being an open source platform- rooting the phone and flashing custom ROMs for a whole new experience. I forgot my longing to have an Apple device and embraced Android wholeheartedly.

Until Windows Phone came from nowhere. At first, I got intrigued by the Live Tile feature, these colorful squares at your phone screen. I got interested with getting a phone, but I got scared of leaving my device. Not because of the process of transferring your files and stuff, but because it would be a whole new thing for me. What if the UI sucks? What it the functions I need is not available? What if there are no Windows version of the apps and games I currently have? It's true that developers devote their products to Android and iOS users. And a friend of mine warned me that all the games I'm playing have no Windows version. But I took the risk.

My Lumia 630 sporting Amber accent

One day my brother came home with a brand new Nokia Lumia 630 which he got as a loyalty offer from his cellphone company. As a fellow Android user, his plan was to sell the phone. Then there's me, wanting to try out a Windows device, so I bought it from him. When I first opened the phone and did navigation, I was surprised on how simple the UI is, and I loved its simplicity. In an that same time I started transferring my contacts to the new phone, along with my files. Then began downloading the apps I need. I also tried using the camera and I can say it's way better than my Galaxy S3 Mini.

As always, what I liked about my new phone is it's battery life. Nokia phones are known for their durable phones with long lasting battery- remember the 3210 and 3310 models? Battery lasts up to 4 days even when using it with games and watching videos. And recently, I activated Cortana she's a darling- she knows me and helps me a lot, especially with internet searching.

Cortana doing her job- to make my life easier.

Yes, I'm now in love with my Windows device. I am looking forward to spending more years with my new phone. And if you're asking what happened to my old phone, well I still love it and still use it for games and serves as a hotspot device sometimes. If you're looking for a new smartphone, try Windows, I'm pretty sure you'll enjoy it.

February 2, 2015

Rara Answers: Are You a Religious Person?

A question I received from my Ask box couple of days ago. In case you don't know, Ask is a social networking site where people get to send you questions and you get to answer them. Though it's been around for years, I just started using it months ago, to connect with friends/follows on Twitter.

So back to the question (which by the way, sent by an anonymous person), it took me quite a while to answer it. Religion has been out of my business for the past years; I was caught a bit off guard with this, but still I posted my response:

"No. I grew up in a very religious family under a church that requires you to attend service twice a week. I grew up active in the church, choir member and officer, etc. But over the years as I discover myself going towards the rainbow path and the denomination I'm in criticizes it I realized I cannot be part of this religious group. So now I stopped going to church, and currently I don't belong to any christian groups."

After re-reading my answer, I realized it isn't enough. No, being gay is not only the reason why I quit attending church services. Come to think of it, the years I spent being an activist and learning Marxism contributed to what I believe today. Though I am already a regular person, part of the bourgeoisie class as they say, lessons I learned from Marx stayed with me. Particularly dialectical materialism which teaches and recognizes that the world is made of material and that every event in the universe is made up of matter, and motion. It detaches itself from the idea that spirit is the source of all existence on Earth.  I admit this used to be my favorite and I can say that it really had an impact on my beliefs, especially in terms of religion.

Again, back to the question: Am I a religious person? Religion - in my view, these are the beliefs that exists. Buddhism, Christianity, Hinduism, Taoism, Islam, and many other religions around the world. Denomination, particularly Christian denominations are the churches that practice Christianity- Catholic, Methodist, Born Again, Protestant, and others (lots of them actually). I am a Christian- I was born a Christian, but I don't belong to any of these denominations mentioned (though as per my brother, I'm still listed as a member at my former church). Don't hate me, I respect the teachings of every church,  I don't have anything against it. I still think that having a meaningful spiritual life does good to people. I just don't practice it, as I had doubts in the Christian teaching of divine existence. And in the past couple of years I began to wonder and appreciate the ancient alien theory wherein foreign life from another world/universe gave us the knowledge and taught us to expand our civilization which I believe is very possible.

The universe is a very mysterious place; I don't think that we are the only living species. Who knows there might be another civilization far more superior than us billions of light years away from Earth?